Kwon Mina is again making many fans and followers on Instagram worried about her latest post.
In the latest post, Mina again recounted in more detail the bullying she had suffered since her trainee days by Shin Jimin, the former leader of AOA, emphasizing that she always ended up being persecuted and hostile to Jimin and flooded with criticism that was always directed at her.
“During the trainee period, trivial tasks and the task of fetching water where I no longer care. But during the group punishment, I was the only one who was hit with a fist to the chest repeatedly while being cursed at. Whenever that happens, it just so happens that Unnie is always in front. During promotions for 'Confused', I had lost a lot of weight and the unnie said, “Why is your body like that? You look like an asshole ”but in the end, he himself was even thinner than me. From the start, the company gave me a rap position, and I mainly took lessons for it. Later, I was also in charge of bass and mostly took lessons for both. So for sure I only took a few vocal classes. However, after debuting, the composer said that my voice fits the vocals better, so I practiced singing every morning and did a recording. Of course, there are times when the vocal director likes her, and there are times when they don't. The vice CEO at the time and JYH sunbae also praised me during the previous song recording. Whenever that happened, I was very happy but whenever I got a little confidence in myself, that unnie would endlessly criticize me just for my singing, be it in the car or wherever. Since it was something that happened repeatedly, every time I entered the recording session, my body would tremble and it was so scary that I had to take lots of sedatives. Dance time is no exception. While I was constantly criticized, there was a time when Unnie was in the wrong formation and I told her about it. He didn't answer but there was a unique gaze from him that always fixed on me. I was (surprised) that I wasn't cursed at ... "
“A dorm is a shared residence so if I invite people, even if it's only for a short time, I have to get permission from Unnie and the other members. But since unnie, like herself, has no one to get permission, she will take people as she pleases, without telling us. Once I met team leader Song Yoonho, who is a boy, in the middle of the night when I was going to be completely naked while carrying a laundry basket. Unnie also often calls her close friend, a comedian, at night and they will play loudly. There was also a time when they called me to come out to the living room, over the phone, while I was sleeping in the room. There was a time when I refused because I had to sleep after taking sleeping pills, while one time I played with them and had to go to the playground near the apartment for a game penalty before coming back. From then on, when that guest would come, I would pack my sleeping pills and say that I would go to the practice room. I was going to sleep on the table in the practice room and after that, my eyes couldn't get a good look ahead in the mirror, be it at the salon or during dance practice. That person even said that my face was messed up. I always look down diagonally. "
“Then one day, at the salon, because there were times when we didn't know who would be there, on days like that, (the sister) would start scolding me again in the car for not greeting them, or not greeting them properly. He would start like that, then scold the members, either for personal reasons or malicious comments. When he got into a fight with someone, and got angry and cried, he couldn't keep up with the reality show schedule, so I and the other two members continued. As for the music show schedule, he didn't want to go away but after being coaxed and pampered he went back to the schedule. When she cried after a survival program, saying it was hard, everyone still comforted her. Such a person realizes one silent tear in which I cry when my father is about to die and drags me to the cupboard, saying I am spoiling the mood and asking why people should care about me. Unnie lives while receiving comfort even when unnie spoils her mood, but since I can't do that, I can only see my father in the hospital at night or the morning after the schedule, while having to shoot the drama at the most appropriate time the next day. I got to see the members and during that week, if I saw (my father's) condition worsen, I was afraid I would think about him and cry, so I turned off the lights at home and held him, and couldn't go (see him) after that. Somewhere (or someone) mentioned that I was given two weeks? There is no such thing. I was very busy due to promotions for 'Like a Cat' and filming for 'Modern Farmer'. Watched him (my father) when he died? My mom called and said she looked like she was going to die soon and I rushed to the hospital when I heard about it. In the 5 to 10 minutes that I was almost there, I heard a beep sound and the announcement of the time of her death, and saw that she had written shaky words in the sketchbook, "My daughter ... where ... am I?" I felt guilty that I couldn't see my father often because of that damned "concern for others," and had to throw him out without saying a word that I loved him. "
“Even so, as I continued with the schedule, I thought it would be fine for a while. But I was taken to the hospital with seizures and I easily passed out. I received a diagnosis of cervical dysplasia and they said stress was a big cause for this, so I just walked away. At about 26 years old, under that unnie's torment, my teeth were shaking and I had no choice but to take medicine and attend events, but (that unnie) looked at me and asked why I was stressed. At that instant, my eyes lost focus and I stared at him with a slight smile, because of how speechless I was, thinking to myself that it was because of him.
I hooked up with a friend who also left after receiving treatment for two weeks because unnie and we talked about each other's condition which we didn't know about and she left quickly because she couldn't stand it, but when I heard her she said that I had been holding her too long so it exploded now, I was so pissed off and apologized that I hoped (the target) would be the other members because it was so severe just to me. So much so that all the other members acknowledged it. From things like having to hear things like, You don't know anything so don't talk about it, to hearing "Do you think you're going to become something?" after I came back from the acting audition. "
“Whenever the new manager comes, you will always introduce me first, like you are teasing me, saying that she is a scary slut who pretends to be an idiot. When the contract renewal season came, (we agreed) to talk about this and that (during the extension), but I was the only one who kept that promise. The older sister only talked about her own solo and finished the discussion. I'm very happy with my job and it's fun, when (people) complain about salary or busy schedules, in my heart, I think we should be thankful that we earn more than people our age, and for having a lot of schedules. I think that they never experienced poverty when they were young and they feel that too many are dissatisfied. Thinking about it, no matter what you told us to say at the company, the only person who kept his word and actually said it, was me. I'm trying hard to get unnie's help, at any cost. Whether the company sees me well or not, what I fear is you. Even during trainee days, when I was accused of calling you a bastard, I don't know if you heard wrong or if you just wanted to calm your anger, you made a fuss but I just smiled telling you that I didn't say that because I could never say that to oldest brother. But you are still acting. If you don't like something, say it, and tell me what you don't like. Or, if everyone can't think of this as too much business-like, and prevent a fight from happening if someone tries to take his life and is mentally unstable. It was obvious that he didn't like me. Your answer is very simple, saying that you don't remember or it doesn't happen. "
“And Jimin-ah, you use the company names of sunbae oppa and other sunbaes, to get money and cigarettes? If you play around during the school days, you have to end it here or remember that there is a line to keep. I believe that you will gain control once you become an adult. When I am swollen with pain, rather than (worrying about) my health, you look at me like you are fascinated and ask, why is your face like this? This is too much? You are busy criticizing my appearance and when you come to my house to apologize, forget apologies but you are looking for a knife? Unfortunately, I was at the point where all the sharp objects had been confiscated, and you brought people by your side so it was clear you would be stopped. Will they let a single scratch enter your body? If you had screamed that it was okay if you died, why didn't you do it when you came home? I try it almost every day. In ten years, what I have experienced is not only this. I have to record everything. My memory isn't good but even so, I remember this. "
“With a sincere apology, I could just forgive ten years of disgusting experience in one moment. Because you keep saying you don't remember and it doesn't happen, and that's fiction? As we spoke, I swore to our two fathers who I believed would witness, that I would only tell the truth. Even now, I'm not lying. Forget the lies, I'm annoyed that there are still many things I can't remember. By the way, at that time, since you said you didn't remember and you didn't, I cursed strongly and I wanted to hit you as much as I took. Honestly, since there were so many people by your side there, if there was any evidence against me, that 10 year old victim could immediately become the perpetrator. So I can only cry from anger. (You) said sorry without knowing what wrong you did, and put on a trashy expression and left. I have been worrying since I was 12 years old and finally started earning my own income at 14, therefore I have met many types of people and experienced many different things and people who are trashy. I met a lot of weird kids after dropping out of middle school and starting to work part-time, being taken advantage of while rumors about me became dirty and misunderstandings emerged, so I wasn't viewed in a positive light. I lived while working to death without sleeping, saying I would get a lot of money back while running away, saving up to about 2,000,000 won in the second half of my sixteenth year, right before I became a trainee. Wherever you go, people will trip you up. Even though I'm a high school graduate, to be honest I'm not that different from an elementary graduate. I took GED during middle school and went to open high school (high school for people who can't attend regular schools). So I make a lot of mistakes with my vocabulary and I speak a mixed regional dialect and a lot of my words come out weird. Even so, unnie thought I was acting like that on purpose, in order to be considered cute. But 10 years, where you were worse than any trash I could ever imagine. The constant torture made me very upset and angry even now. Have I been in a fight with you? What do I do? The fees where I was dragged into the ER for you could run into the thousands. Even though they increased the amount of medicine, it didn't really work. I don't accept sincere apologies and your family doesn't apologize or show their faces. They may hate me without knowing that their own daughter has killed someone. "
“The perpetrator is always a living person while the victim tries to commit suicide in various ways and gets injured while suffering from mental illness and eventually becomes physically ill and dies in vain, there are many victims like that. Because you, me too, have cut my wrist over 20 times and have tried to overdose on sleeping pills, carbon monoxide, hanging myself, I have tried everything I know. I don't know if my life line is really long or because someone saves me all the time, but every time I open my eyes I'm in the hospital. Every time a talk about you comes up, I get angry and cry. But I won't be quiet like the other victims. When time passes, will I do what I love and live well, or will I still be locked in my memory, forever tormented by one person named Shin Jimin, or will I disappear even before that because I can't take it? again? I want to talk to both of you. You have my contact number. If you tortured me for 10 years, if you are human, don't ignore this. I want you to keep talking if I am really making it up or if I have hurt you in any way. I have absolutely nothing to hide. I really wonder that I haven't died from anger, because of what I experienced from you. " (www.kpopchart.net)
